Humans...

I don’t think I understand humans.  From a young age I have felt as if I wasn’t part of humanity, but looking in at it.  Waiting for my people to come and take me home.  As age has crept up on me and I watch myself age, I look as if I belong but I still don’t feel it.  Irrational hatred, distrust, war, oppression, they all look foreign to me still.  Identifying with animals seems easier.  If an animal hurts you, it’s because you threatened or hurt them – pure instinct.  If a human hurts you, it can be for personal gain, self aggrandizement, lust, or simply for their own amusement.  There is a list of things humans shouldn’t do to each other, outlined in the 10 Commandments.  Unfortunately most humans don’t seem to truly follow these.  Personally, I do not follow these commandments.  I have one personal rule.  Do not hurt other people unnecessarily.  It works well for me.  I wish it could keep the pain at bay, the pain I feel when I see those ugly human behaviors and when I have those behaviors visited upon me.  If only humanity could see that the only way to truly grow up as a species is to have the courage to let go of all that, transcend the pettiness of life and become real people.  I hope it's not too late.